Selfish Man

By: Avatar-Roku32

Rating: Teen

Pairing(s): HitsuHinaKuja

Disclaimer: The only one I own is Eitatsu Kujakou.  The Bleach Character belongs to Kubo Tite and the lyrics to “Selfish Man” belong to the band Flogging Molly.


I don't eat I just devour, everyone in every hour
All is me, is all I need and that's all that I care
Propelled through all this madness, by your beauty and my sadness
I'll never change or rearrange, till I've finished what I've started.

Eitatsu Kujakou was selfish.

He knew that.  He did not deny it.  He enjoyed fighting for fighting’s sake.  He enjoyed snatching people’s things for the hell of it.  He enjoyed living his afterlife to the fullest.  Whether he was being possessed by that bastard of a zanpakuto of his or not, it did not change this fact.

Even to his relationships with people, he was selfish.

And life leads me here
It shows me, I have never really loved no one but me
Like the time, you slipped through my hands
I'll never understand why I'm such a Selfish Man

Hinamori Momo, a person so much like himself in a way.  Both being manipulated by others, whether it was Aizen Sosuke’s kindness or Akegata Shirofuri’s training him.  It attracted him to her, and he had hoped it was reciprocal, for her to look at him with those kindly chocolate eyes with care and love.

Him and only him.

Walk around me not before me
I'll pretend not to ignore ye
But I'll compromise if I realize you can do something for me
I'm ugly and you know it, but you think that I'm a poet
So I'll keep the rhyme if I feel in time, it gets me where I'm going

There was always something in his way.  Even during his time in Amancer, Eitatsu Kujakou’s paths always seemed blocked by that White-Haired bastard.

Hitsugaya Toshiro, Captain of the 10th Division, and general pain in Kujakou’s ass.  Only some god’s cruelty would make Hitsugaya a childhood friend, almost a little brother, to the girl who had Kujakou’s affections.

Bugger him! Karyuu whispered to him.  He’s only jealous because you actually have blood in your veins.

Kujakou ignored he zanpakuto.  It would need to learn some restraint.  Like he was one to talk!  Kujakou never exactly sugar-coated his speech.  He would voice what he thought of people.

Kujakou told Hitsugaya that he was just as much a freak as he was.

Kujakou called Kira scum for attacking someone he “claimed” to call friend.

And life leads me here
It shows me, I have never really loved no one but me
Like the time, you slipped through my hands
And I'll never understand
No I'll never understand, why I'm such a Selfish Man

Right now he could imagine Hinamori and Shiro-Teme enjoying themselves, and the idea of that bastard with her was enough to boil his blood.  This boy who was nothing but cruel and cold, calling her “Bed-Wetter Momo” and not even visiting her when she was still in that (And now prepare for Kujakou’s World Famous Bas Impression) “Aizen-Taichou!” stage.

It disgusted him so much, that he really wished there was someone in the courtyard with him right now, as he Swung Karyuu in a wide arc, trying to imagine a hollow being sliced through.

A Hollow with white hair and glowing blue-green eyes.

All I heard was an unearthly silence
Apart from the violence, explode in my head
Where all at once was this moment of beauty
No more since it slew me, no never again, again, again

No I'll never understand
No I'll never understand, why I'm such a Selfish Man

He stopped for a moment letting his zanpakuto fall down as he stood, the only sound was Kujakou trying to even his breath.  Because after all, there was only one thing that stopped Kujakou from marching to the 10th Division headquaters right now and delivering the divine justice that the arrogant “Child Genius” deserved.

And that was the very thought of Hinamori crying because of something Kujakou did.

So Kujakou had to accept that it was beyond his control, although he’d never admit it.  He’d try and try and try, even if Hinamori were to marry that bastard.

He’d never give up or give in because Eitatsu Kujakou was a selfish man.

But then again…

So was Hitsugaya Toshiro.